The day before Mother's Day is Birth Mom's Day. I have such mixed feelings when it comes to Liana's birth mama. I feel so grateful to her for choosing life when abortion is so common and encouraged in China. She went through 9 months of pregnancy and labor for this beautiful girl to be on this earth and doesn't get to be the one to watch her grow. I feel sorrow for her that she doesn't know that her daughter is in a family who loves her and no longer in an orphanage. She can only wonder what has happened to the baby that she gave birth to. I feel guilt that I get to be the one to raise this child and watch her grow. I feel fear of the future and how I will answer Liana's questions as she gets older about her start in this world and her birth family and how she came to be in this family that doesn't look like her. I worry that she won't always think of me as her "real" mom and if she will someday rebel against us because we don't share the same genes. That's what us moms do though, right? We worry. About everything. I know that I can only take it as it comes and hope and pray that I can handle things as they come up. I just hope that I can be everything that all of my kids need me to be.
Me and my cubs
(check out Ella...how does a 6 year old know how to pose like that?!)
Fun in the photo booth